This was supposed to be Sunday's post. It has taken me 2 days and lots of excuses to work up to writing it. I ran into this post on Mama Laughlin's hilarious blog, and it inspired me to share. My new direction is a response to what I felt was a lot of waste in my life. I have been wasting time, relationships, food, space, money, my house, creativity, talent, opportunities.
One of the largest things (pun intended), that I feel I've been wasting is my youth and relative health. By relative health I mean that there is no disease or disorder I am struggling from that is out of my control at this point. I have become increasingly aware of the fact that there are other 31 year old women who have cancer for example, or M.S., or who are wheelchair bound. I am not one of them. I should be using this able body to get healthy and live life. I am overweight, stressed, and lazy quite frankly, none of which are beyond my control to change.
So here is my current state of affairs when it comes to my WAIST management...
I have slowly gained weight over the last 10 years or so and told myself the following:
"I'm just curvy" (which I am even at a size 4, but my curves are now hidden under fluff)
"I gain weight proportionately" (but there is nothing proportionate about 5'3" and 186 pounds)
"I'm confident with who I am" (and by confident I mean crying in my closet and avoiding pictures)
"I'm perfectly healthy" (cue migraines, back and neck pain, IBS, exhaustion)
"I'm just too busy" (crap no excuses now, I just quit my job)
I have been a smidge heavier, but I've been WAY lighter and healthier and need to get back there. It's not just about the number. If I was 5'11" and looked and felt my best at 186, then I'd be thrilled with 186. Not the case. My goal weight is 130 pounds - 50ish pounds I would eventually like to lose. But along the way I will celebrate the small successes so I will be checking in every Sunday with my WAIST MANAGEMENT post. Sunday is my weigh in day, and I will include progress pictures every 10 pounds to keep myself accountable and hopefully inspire a bit along the way. I'm enlisting the help of my online peeps to encourage me, share tips with me, and tell me to put down that doughnut. So feel free to comment and cheer me on!
So with an adventurous spirit, here are the BEFORE pictures...
And here's to the last time I will see 186 in the mirror or on the scale!
One of the largest things (pun intended), that I feel I've been wasting is my youth and relative health. By relative health I mean that there is no disease or disorder I am struggling from that is out of my control at this point. I have become increasingly aware of the fact that there are other 31 year old women who have cancer for example, or M.S., or who are wheelchair bound. I am not one of them. I should be using this able body to get healthy and live life. I am overweight, stressed, and lazy quite frankly, none of which are beyond my control to change.
So here is my current state of affairs when it comes to my WAIST management...
186 pounds currently (yikes I just typed that out loud).
Size 14 pants (complete with muffin top).
Shorts are nowhere to be found in my closet (but elastic is plentiful).
14 in dresses and skirts (and heaven forbid it hits above my knee).
XL in tops or anything with no number size (enter elastic again as yoga pants abound, but no yoga is being done in them).
I couldn't even tell you my true bra size unless there's a size ill-fitting (my cup overfloweth).
I have slowly gained weight over the last 10 years or so and told myself the following:
"I'm just curvy" (which I am even at a size 4, but my curves are now hidden under fluff)
"I gain weight proportionately" (but there is nothing proportionate about 5'3" and 186 pounds)
"I'm confident with who I am" (and by confident I mean crying in my closet and avoiding pictures)
"I'm perfectly healthy" (cue migraines, back and neck pain, IBS, exhaustion)
"I'm just too busy" (crap no excuses now, I just quit my job)
"I'll start losing weight and getting in shape Monday, or after the holidays, or when summer starts." (or when this zombie apocalypse is over. You get the picture. Always making it an all or nothing even though I know deep down that I can start now with my very next food or activity decision, and those little things add up to true weight loss.)
I have been a smidge heavier, but I've been WAY lighter and healthier and need to get back there. It's not just about the number. If I was 5'11" and looked and felt my best at 186, then I'd be thrilled with 186. Not the case. My goal weight is 130 pounds - 50ish pounds I would eventually like to lose. But along the way I will celebrate the small successes so I will be checking in every Sunday with my WAIST MANAGEMENT post. Sunday is my weigh in day, and I will include progress pictures every 10 pounds to keep myself accountable and hopefully inspire a bit along the way. I'm enlisting the help of my online peeps to encourage me, share tips with me, and tell me to put down that doughnut. So feel free to comment and cheer me on!
So with an adventurous spirit, here are the BEFORE pictures...
In the interest of full disclosure, I chose to take the picture with the disarray that is my current bathroom visible as well.
And here's to the last time I will see 186 in the mirror or on the scale!
