This space has been pretty quiet lately. Part of that is because much of my creative effort has been going into the book project. But also, it's because I feel like this blog, and our lives are in transition. I started a second blog, The Candid Teacher, as a space to try out content for the book, and build a community around the topic of raising and educating kids. It's been awesome, and that has freed this blog up for more creativity and personal stories.
So speaking of personal stories, there are things I've been processing, and words I've been searching for to describe recent events in our life. I want to share with you here as a way to continue to think out loud, reach out to others who might be going through the same thing, and share a perspective, while documenting our journey.
We got some hard news a couple months ago, the kind that knocks the wind out of you and has you gasping for air and answers in the following weeks. We've been trying to start a family for the past year and a half or so, with no luck. I had previously written a little about it in this post. We finally decided to get some testing done to determine if there were any issues. There is an issue, a major, unexplained one, which nothing really can be done about, and it sucks. We are both completely fine from a health standpoint, but we found out it will be nearly impossible for us to get pregnant on our own. Basically, the best chance we'd have would be to go straight to IVF (In Vetro Fertilization), which is something we had already decided at the very beginning wasn't for us.
It is one of those heart wrenching cases of not really knowing how much you wanted something until you can't have it. There have been lots of tears and hugging. We've gone to some counseling to process things out loud, and grown closer to each other in these past couple months than I think we've ever been. And after much thinking, praying, and discussing, we will most likely adopt, and are looking at getting the process started after the holidays.
I realize this is the very short version of the story, and I'm planning on openly discussing more about infertility and adoption on this blog in the near future. But, this is just a quick rundown of where we are right now. We're kind of on the bridge between two worlds. We're taking some time to research, process emotions, and make decisions. It's also a great time to enjoy our carefree kidless-ness, and focus on some things we already have going on. Even the timing of this book project is really kind of neat to me when I think about it. I have this window of time to write a book about bridging the gap between the classroom and parenthood, while I'm quite literally transitioning from being a teacher to being a mom, hopefully. So our next adventure is going to be a big one, and I'm looking forward to sharing the story of our path to a family in an authentic way in this space.
